It is now December 11, 2025. Sitting in front of the computer and reflecting on the past month, I realize that November passed by in a very "numb" way, almost as if it were just one day, repeating the cycle of going to work, coming home, eating, and sleeping. But is there any way to break this cycle?
So I thought about looking at the summary I wrote for November 2024, and to my surprise, it started with, "After saying goodbye to Double Eleven, we welcomed Double Twelve. As always, if Double Eleven is a gimmick, then Double Twelve is an even bigger gimmick." I can say this again. The discounts on e-commerce platforms can't be said to be nonexistent; it's just that "small benefits are not widespread, and the people do not follow." Also, the care from my partner remains as always, making me understand that I need to take measures to keep warm in winter. I prepared blankets, fluffy slippers, windbreakers, thermal underwear, etc., to enhance my cold resistance. A few days ago, they reminded me to wear a hat and wrap a scarf while riding my bike, which was very thoughtful.
On another major topic—food—I have recently decreased my frequency of going to the cafeteria and have been indulging more in outside dining. Although the prices at restaurants outside are not as attractive as those in the cafeteria, the flavors and textures are still superior. I also feel that eating well and drinking well should not be a place to save money, just like dressing well. It’s worth mentioning that the cafeteria limited the sale of steamed hairy crabs for a time, priced at 8.8 yuan each, and I was lucky enough to have tried one. After eating and drinking well, I naturally wanted to have some fun (commonly known as seeking pleasure). Unfortunately, I have basically explored all the places nearby, so I can only attempt to expand my map on weekends. With the help of my electric scooter and the public transport network, I discovered a few new places, mostly large supermarkets, small shops, or small parks.
Lastly, I have to mention work. This topic is really one I don’t even want to discuss. No wonder "work" and "life" are two opposing words; to work means no life, and to live means no work. However, I can ensure that this year's annual meeting will not be my responsibility, which makes things a bit easier. Other work progresses slowly, and the foreseeable future is also slow. High-intensity thinking is very taxing on brain cells, and in the end, I barely graduated, resulting in varying degrees of brain damage, which is actually a negative optimization for my subsequent career development. Yet, I still don’t understand why it is like this.
Just like the line in "Demian," "What I want is nothing more than to live according to my own heart. Why is it so difficult?"